My Ex Became My Boss—Why You Should Avoid Workplace Romance

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“I am hoping we will put the previous behind us and work collectively from right here on with none issues,” stated my ex-boyfriend Austin (not his actual title), peeking his head into my workplace.

I used to be reeling from the shock of speaking to him for the primary time after giving him the silent therapy for six months. However it wasn’t out of nowhere; I knew why he was right here.

Earlier within the day, I obtained a memo from the proprietor of the publishing firm we each labored for asserting that Austin had been promoted to editor in chief of the journal that I proofread and wrote for.

This meant my ex-boyfriend was now my boss.

Friendship became flirtation

Austin and I turned pals a couple of months after I began working on the firm. Whereas we did not work collectively instantly, I interacted with him generally. Throughout every encounter, he made me really feel so snug.

He had huge, sort eyes and a continuous furrow between his eyebrows as if he was consistently surprised by the depth of the world. However he wasn’t shy; he was the kind of one that by no means met a stranger. He had a nonjudgmental air to him, and even throughout our preliminary banter about workplace issues, I felt like we might been pals for a really very long time. He got here off as extremely clever, and I started to really feel interested in him.

This was the ’90s, earlier than many workplaces adopted strict “no interoffice dating” insurance policies. However even again then, I knew that dating a coworker was a bad idea. “Do not get your honey the place you get your cash,” the saying goes. What would the remainder of the workplace suppose? Was I the kind of lady who slept with the blokes from the workplace?

Logic instructed me to suppress my emotions, however Eros is robust. I stupidly ignored my instincts and let myself fall for Austin.

Someday, I used to be invited to lunch with a bunch of individuals from the workplace, and once I arrived on the café in query, I noticed Austin was there. I took a seat beside him, and we chatted extra. Earlier than lengthy, it was a on condition that we’d eat collectively, flirting the entire time.

In some ways, he was the proper match for me; we labored in the identical business and had comparable aspirations. We have been each pushed to create and had comparable tastes in cinema and books. We all the time had one thing we loved speaking about collectively.

One night time, the sexual tension that had been constructing between us spilled over. We have been each on the workplace late, and he got here to my workplace to say hello. Taking a break from our respective tasks, we sat collectively on the sofa in my workplace. The vitality between us was palpable. I fell into his arms, and he kissed me.

Holding the workplace romance a secret

After that, we turned an merchandise.

Although our firm did not forbid colleagues from dating each other, we each already sensed the taboo nature of our dalliance, so we tried to maintain it a secret. We pretended we did not spend our nights collectively and made positive to reach at work individually within the morning.

However then we might spend lunch in his workplace, and I might emerge afterward with ruffled garments and messed-up hair. Clearly, we have been doing extra than simply consuming in his workplace, and the forbidden features of our relationship simply made it extra intoxicating.

I do not doubt that we have been the supply of lots of office gossip, however at that time, I did not care. I had fallen for Austin.

Looking back, the neatest factor both of us may have executed was to get jobs at totally different corporations. However neither of us did, and this made issues extremely uncomfortable once we ultimately broke up.

The connection soured

It is arduous to recollect precisely the way it occurred, however as many {couples} do, we grew aside.

After a yr of relationship, we started to bicker, maybe from being collectively a lot. We labored collectively all day lengthy, then spent evenings and weekends collectively. We by no means received a break from one another.

Hanging out on a regular basis had engendered our connection, but it surely was additionally its undoing.

One night time, we had an argument. I am unable to even recall what we have been combating about, however I assumed we might make up afterward, as we all the time did. Nothing may put together me for when Austin instructed me he wanted to end things. I begged him to rethink, however he stated it was over.

I used to be devastated. However greater than that, I felt ashamed. It was embarrassing to get dumped and nonetheless be required to see the individual day by day.

Up to now, when males have damaged my coronary heart, I have been capable of lick my wounds in non-public. This time, I wanted house, however I could not get it.

The next afternoon at work, I slammed my workplace door once I heard him speaking to a different worker close by. I used to be damage and uncontrolled. If our coworkers had suspected we have been relationship, they undoubtedly knew we weren’t anymore.

It wasn’t simply that he had rejected me; our friendship was over, too. No extra lunches collectively, no extra joking round on the workplace. All I may do was keep away from him to make issues much less painful for myself.

From that time on, I ended chatting with him, icily wanting the opposite method every time we handed within the corridor, and he, in flip, pretended I did not exist.

I would not be capable of ignore him anymore

Issues proceeded like this for about six months till I received that memo that Austin was now my boss, and it despatched me right into a tailspin. As my new boss, I might haven’t any alternative however to speak to him.

As Austin stood in my doorway after a yr of ignoring one another, I puzzled how I ought to reply. Might I put our previous behind us now that he had turn out to be my superior?

It was simple for him as a result of he was the one who had damaged up with me. He wasn’t the one with the bruised ego when our coworkers inevitably discovered he had dumped me.

“No,” I stated.

Wanting again, I am unable to imagine I responded that method. In any case, Austin had the ability to fireplace me. Fortunately, he did not. He walked away, and I frantically searched my thoughts for an additional method to take care of this predicament.

I requested to be moved to a distinct journal. The corporate we labored for revealed varied magazines, so this wasn’t an not possible ask. After I met with a senior government, I did not inform him why I needed to maneuver. Just a few days later, I had a brand new project, and Austin was now not my boss.

I am unable to imagine how unprofessional I used to be

I am unable to say I might handled our breakup with a lot maturity. I used to be in my mid-20s and wasn’t probably the most developed human again then. I am now 53, and I am astounded by how unprofessional I used to be.

I understand how simple it’s to turn out to be blinded by one’s feelings, and I utterly perceive why it is turn out to be commonplace for corporations to have strict no-workplace-romance insurance policies.

And but, a 2023 survey by the Society for Human Resource Management discovered that 27% of respondents, all US staff, had been in a office romance. Forty % stated they’d flirted with a coworker, and youthful millennial and Gen Z staff have been 33% extra more likely to say they have been open to interoffice dating than older generations.

I discover these statistics surprising, realizing what I do know now about how troublesome it’s to take care of a coworker you have developed emotions for if it would not work out.

The identical survey discovered that almost 20% of respondents who’d been in a workplace romance stated it negatively affected their profession. While you add within the probability of sexual harassment allegations, I might by no means advocate relationship a coworker. Even for those who work in numerous departments, relationship a coworker is opening a Pandora’s field of feelings which can be troublesome to navigate professionally.

I stop the corporate a few yr after Austin received his promotion, and I have not had one other office romance since. Although the expertise did not affect my profession negatively, it did have an effect on how individuals noticed me at that firm. I misplaced the respect of my friends, and that is a sensation I by no means need to really feel once more. I discovered my lesson.

Lara Sterling is a author residing in Los Angeles along with her husband and two youngsters.